I believe in you. I believe you were made to do great things, and I believe that you will. I know you were formed with a purpose tied to your core. And whatever you choose to believe, I know that there is a God who loves every bit of you.
Do you want to know why? Because even before the world began He knew you (2 Timothy 1:9). He knew who you were. He knew who you were going to be. He knows the things you dream about when you lay in bed at night, and He’s so interested in who you are.
Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations. -Jeremiah 1:5.
I like to think God has been waiting all of these years for you to finally get here. I think that maybe your story is part of what kept Him going.
You know, there was a time when God was so angry with all people that He wanted to completely destroy every breathing thing.
And it repented the Lord that he had made man on the earth, and it grieved him at his heart. And the Lord said, I will destroy man whom I have created from the face of the earth; both man, and beast, and the creeping thing, and the fowls of the air; for it repenteth me that I have made them. But Noah found grace in the eyes of the Lord. -Genesis 6:6-8.
The Creator of all things was going to destroy what had the ability to be His best creation, but the wickedness they chose, lead Him to grief and shame for what He’d created. God felt deep regret for even making humans.
BUT… there was one human that kept Him going. There was one story of commitment that kept us here. God felt regret for the people of that day, but this one story pushed God to think past His painful emotion and find another way.
What if you are a Noah? What if you are what keeps God going?
I’m imaginative about all of this, and sometimes I wonder. When Jesus was flooded with anxiety, begging for this mission to be taken and for the excruciatingly painful task to be done away with, was your story on His mind?
When He knew what He had to do, were you the thing that made the misery worth it?
I can see Him stretched across the splintering wood. Blood and tears dripping from His body. Breathless. Aching. Feeling forsaken. Crying out to God.
“My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” –Matthew 27:46
In this moment, what if He had a “flash-forward”? The memory was there because He’d already seen our lives. He knew us before He created the world. His mind was flooded with memories of the future, memories of the potential you and I are filled with.
Some say, right before you die, your life’s memories flash before your eyes. But what if, not His life, but our lives flashed before His eyes. That’s how He knew He had to do it. That’s how He knew it would all be worth it. Our lives would make the pain worth it.
And now, the time has passed. Maybe He’s waited anxiously to see your beautiful story unfold. Finally, finally you are here. He couldn’t destroy all of humanity back then because your story was playing on repeat in His head. He couldn’t let that be lost forever. He loves you with the purest love possible. He endured every bit of mental and physical suffering so that you would have a chance. He died that day, fought the forces of Hell, gained the key to life and death, rose up and walked out of that grave; all for you and for me.
God gave us the mercy to keep us alive in the Old Testament, and He gave us the grace to do something with that life in the New Testament.
Now it’s our time to show Him that it was not in vain. Every bit of love was not in vain.
” …It is for us, the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us—that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion; that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain; that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom; and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.” -Abraham Lincoln // The Gettysburg Adress
We have the potential to live for and love that same God who went through such things for us. Jesus was one of us, the sacrifice was made by Him, for us– the people, of all time. Let’s get out there and live. Let’s live for Him now.
Your past may not look like something He’d want to fight for, but Honey let me tell you. That past is what lead you to this present, and this present is what leads to showing God that it really was worth it. This present and our future is the opportune time to finally live a life fully alive.
I’m rooting for you,